Headache all day long. Bad one. It's easy to ignore if there's some other manufactured source of pain. Maybe I made it all up. Maybe I always do that. Maybe I create a problem in order to draw my attention from another one.
I have trust issues. Which is confusing, right, because I don't have daddy issues or man issues or rape issues or... I've never even been cheated on. Some one else is much more deserving of my trust issues. But it's concerning because I'm starting to think maybe these trust issues are enough to keep me out of a relationship... a potentially wonderful and good relationship. I have trust issues because I don't want to get hurt - but I think it would be wrong to keep someone in a relationship because you never learned to trust them. Shouldn't it be the opposite? Aren't I less than desirable like this?
FUCK WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME I DONT FUCKING KNOW WHEN I GOT THIS WAY WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED!!? TRYING TO BE ALL ARTICULATE AND SHIT TRYING TO PICK APART MY FUCKING FEELINGS FOR WHAT? THERE IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH MY HEAD.
